I am an optimistic person. I often say 'Happy Heart!' I look for the best in everyone. I'm usually all giggles and grins.....HOWEVER today sucked. I guess I hurt someone's feelings, so I cried at work about that, which if you know me even a tad, I hate people being mad at me and I would never start a fight. I have fought with my husband obviously, he's always wrong and I'm always right....kidding. But I have never fought with a friend, ever. So when I heard someone took me the wrong way today it sent me into a spiral of a sad day. Then my dear dog Oscar needed more pain meds. I called the vet and explained that we didn't want a blood test to determine if the pain meds were affecting his liver, because lets face it....he has cancer and a bad heart. He is almost 12, and for a Boxer that is awesome....then I cried to her because I thought about losing our beloved Oscar. Awesome, it was noon and I had cried twice....the ugly cry. Fast forward to afterschool. I had a friend deliver 10 kits to Mad River today---that is great and makes me feel accomplished. I still have an endless of emails needing kits, which I am trying to order. I delivered 6 to my mentor/friend/hero Kris. She said she would deliver them for me tomorrow---blessing. After I left my back end of my van wouldn't latch. We would drive and it would open. I'd shut it. We'd drive, it would fly open. It's dark, Brady and I have no idea what the heck is going on. So, we ended up duct taping, neon pink, the back end of my mini van shut. I am not kidding. I should post a pic.
Next stop...Wal-Mart to get the meds that apparently are killing my dogs liver, who has cancer, so what's the better of the two evils? I decided that if the pain meds do indeed kill him, at least he wasn't in pain. I pull into Walmart, both my kids are screaming they are hungry and I just start singing Jingle Bells because if I don't I may just cry....again. I find a parking spot...grab my purse....oh, wait, I DONT HAVE MY PURSE.... of course I don't. So I pull my duct taped van out of Wal-mart, head home and bathe one kid in our sink, because our bath is leaking, and the other kid jumps in my shower. My hubby picks up the meds.....thank goodness, because what if poor Oscar leaves us tonight and he is in pain? He at least needs to leave Earth high as a kite, right? I respond to emails, applied for 3 grants today and check on status, did IXL with Presley, and hide our damn Elf.....
Thanks for even reading, listening to me complain....it seems to feel better if I can get it out. I'll reiterate. You may think I do great things for kids, I do. I LOVE kids, but you may not like me, or your personality may not be cohesive to mine, and as much as I cried about hurting someone's feelings today, I realized that mine were hurt too and maybe that was never taken into consideration.
I have always said....I am a Mommy, Wife, Daughter, Teacher, and Non-Profit Creator. I am not perfect, and trust me I l know this....however, I am learning from my missteps and I am moving on. In the end I have a HAPPY HEART and I want to share it with every child I meet.
Snuggle your friends and family,
I leave you tonight with a full heart, full mind, full agenda,.....and as of right now a full bladder,
Trisha
Next stop...Wal-Mart to get the meds that apparently are killing my dogs liver, who has cancer, so what's the better of the two evils? I decided that if the pain meds do indeed kill him, at least he wasn't in pain. I pull into Walmart, both my kids are screaming they are hungry and I just start singing Jingle Bells because if I don't I may just cry....again. I find a parking spot...grab my purse....oh, wait, I DONT HAVE MY PURSE.... of course I don't. So I pull my duct taped van out of Wal-mart, head home and bathe one kid in our sink, because our bath is leaking, and the other kid jumps in my shower. My hubby picks up the meds.....thank goodness, because what if poor Oscar leaves us tonight and he is in pain? He at least needs to leave Earth high as a kite, right? I respond to emails, applied for 3 grants today and check on status, did IXL with Presley, and hide our damn Elf.....
Thanks for even reading, listening to me complain....it seems to feel better if I can get it out. I'll reiterate. You may think I do great things for kids, I do. I LOVE kids, but you may not like me, or your personality may not be cohesive to mine, and as much as I cried about hurting someone's feelings today, I realized that mine were hurt too and maybe that was never taken into consideration.
I have always said....I am a Mommy, Wife, Daughter, Teacher, and Non-Profit Creator. I am not perfect, and trust me I l know this....however, I am learning from my missteps and I am moving on. In the end I have a HAPPY HEART and I want to share it with every child I meet.
Snuggle your friends and family,
I leave you tonight with a full heart, full mind, full agenda,.....and as of right now a full bladder,
Trisha
